| For the first time in my life I found a rose that captures every emotion in me. Its fragrance mezmerizes me. This rose is not just beautiful but it has the fingerprint(evidence) of my beloved, he formed and painted it.It hasnt blossomed yet and if I were touch it, I would never see the fullness of its beauty. It's my favorite color and fragrance. I'm only allowed to admire the rose from a distance.
I have dreamed for so long and believed for so long that I'm exhausted. My strength is gone but what has kept me is His strength. I'm learning to stand but my knees are getting heavy and weak. Thank God my hope is in Jesus and not me. Its hard for me to dream anymore but I know God can dream for me. My desires and will, they don't matter any longer...my emotions decieve me. my understanding is limited. I have been humbled and continue to because I have nothing to loose. I have layed down my life, dreams, will, emotions and understanding. My dependencity is on Him...Yes, I hurt and I feel pain all the time but I know somehow, the ending will be good.
Ps. 25:1-10
To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul; in you I trust, O my God. Do not let me be put to shame, nor let my enemyies triumph over me. No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame who are treacherous without excuse. Show me your ways, O Lord teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long. Remember, O Lord, your great mercy and love, for they are from of old. Remember not the sins of my youth and my rebellious ways according to your love remember me, for you are good, O Lord. Good and upright is the Lord; therefore he instructs sinners in his ways. He guides the humble in what is right and teaches thenhis way. All the ways of the Lord are loving and faithful for those who keep the demands of his covenant.
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love yall...Shley |
